Unintentional ... whatever.

So I was in the middle of a completely different entry that was probably a lot more articulate and thought out than this one is going to be.  But the mood got killed, and I still feel like blogging. 

I have so much to say... so much on my mind.  Since it would take an eternity to make a particular entry about each thing I have been thinking about, maybe I'll just make a list here.

- My mother, wishing I could be there while she recovers from surgery
- Kind of wondering if I am doing things right, wondering if people are mad at me
- I've been dreaming about gigantic marine life that act strangely... like giant fish that stalk people out of water and sharks and whales with nasty teeth
- My new relationship with Riley
- Missing my past.
-  Ew.  Ouch.  That last one just started to hurt a little more.  There are a few people so close to my heart that I feel like are gone. 
- My internship at Catholic Community Services.  I feel like I am starting to love it.  Its been amazing and eye opening.
- My progression.  I feel like when it comes to spirituality and self-security, that this summer has been a leap forward.

- My gratitude for an amazing ward and an amazing bishop.
- My gratitude for a boyfriend that tells me I'm beautiful with eyes that mean it.

Ugh.  I feel like I am full of so much emotion that I just can't get out.  Just so much that I'm feeling.  This entry kind of blows.  Feel free to disregard this post.  It didn't really serve its purpose, because I still feel like........  

yelling? 
crying?
sleeping?

Good night!